As I type this, there are only 2 people on my mind.

Scratch that, make it 3 people in my mind.

One would be my dearest brother of mine.

I just want to let him know here that,

Second would be the boy I have spend with,

waiting the day I can call him mine.

That was two months and 3 days ago,

and I still am proud of calling him mine.

All I want to say is,

Thirdly is a random person. Mothership (;

I miss you, so very much Abang );Life's not so good without you by my side.

There's just so many things I want to tell you,there's just so many things going on in my life.

&You're not here to protect me.I need you with me.I love you, Everyday. For the past few days,

I've been doing alot of thinking. &When I do that, I do alot of clearing up. Which means forget the old, remember the new. I know I have a couple of friends who are going through shit in their life, &obviously it has to do with someone they thought is The one for them. They come to me, and ask me "How do you let go of someone you love?" "How do you say goodbye to someone?"

Forgiving is the first step to letting go. As long as you do not forgive, you are still holding on. You need to let go of the anger, forgive and it disappears. Next, the disappointment sets in. Trust me, this is the hardestpart of the whole process. Because nothing hurts more than sheer disappointment. But when it does set in, all you can do is cry. Cry and cry, then one day you will realise, that it gets better. Then without knowing, you have already let go of the person emotionally. And that's when you say goodbye. I don't know why I am writing this. But I get very tired of not being able to save everyone. But I just want the people who matters to me to rmb, If there are times you want to give up,and think you can't do it anymore.

Do it for the ones you love. &Because I love you, I will always be there for you. And I know right now, in my dysfunctional life there are people who secretely hates me because they think I will always get what I want, or try to steal what is their's. Get this straight, I don't have the F'ing time to take what I already have. I am content, &rmb not everything revolves around You.

So don't flatter yourself. I have decided, if you cannot love me for who I am, &wants to love someone who you want me to be, then you are not my friend, &I certainly don't want you in my life. Walk, all of you please walk. Because I am not going to ask any of you to stay. And if you stay, I love you. Remember that.

ps: MFB, beshfwen said that i seems to lose weight.

But than BOYFIE i think that im getting chubby uh ehehe

You can pinch my Fat cheeks now.